As Liz (and I) witnessed on Saturday. I am not stable.

So much shit going on. I know most of you think I'm lying or exaggerating, which I do do, But I'm not. Liz was the very first witness to this on saturday. How much Linda is truly a bitch. How my dad just follows along. Ryan even called her a bitch. Ryan said on saturday that I can leave with him any time I want. Nicki said I could go over to her house any time too. I'm so happy I have them. Without Ryan, life there would definitely be unbearable. Sometimes I see the old dad, the one who's not "The father", but the one who was daddy. He came out saturday night, but just like that, it was gone.

I learned a lot about Liz on saturday. I just want to tell her again how sorry I am for being so self centered. I didn't realize everything that you told me, and I'm sorry.

I don't know if I like him. As I said earlier, I'm not emotionally stable whatsoever. I've been thinking about it a lot lately, and maybe the only reason I've liked a lot of these guys is because to me they seem so stable. I'm so not. I just don't know.