I don't know what the hell I'm supposed to do.
It's just sort of like
I wanna cry all the time.
wanna know why I can't go?
Because I'm the only one they've got. If I fuck up they don't have anyone else to make it better. Do you know how much fucking pressure that is? I have to pretend like nothing bothers me around them. I have to pretend that I'm okay, and sometimes it's really fucking hard. I have to be perfect for them because no one else will be.
I'm sorry. I really am. I just don't know how to make it better. I don't want to feel this way. But I will try and keep trying. For all of you.