I know I've been ranting lately but I desparately need some way to get these stupid feelings out of my head. I can't stop thinking about him. It's like he's there 24/7 in my mind. When I think about him it makes me wanna laugh and cry at the same time. I don't want to like him. I know I shouldn't. I know he's never going to notice me the way I want him to. He may never notice me period. The only one who knows is Bliss. and she doesn't know what I should do. I'm not supposed to be thinking about him. I've already went through this earlier this year. I don't need to do it again. It's completely pointless. But I can't seem to get him out of my head. I wonder if he ever thinks about me. Even if it's just for a minute. He probably doesn't.

look I don't know what I was thinking and yes, I know it was stupid.

sometimes you just feel everything adn nothing all at once. Sometimes you'll find yourself smiling, while missing something at the same time. At times you can absolutely love a person, all the while wanting to hate them. Life comes without guaruntees except that smiling brightens your face, laughing will enhance your eyes, and falling in love will change your life.