It wasn't a forever kind of thing

I had a weird dream last night.
I was a patient in the psych ward at the hospital
It was strange.
But in a weird way it was comforting.
It was the one place I felt like I belonged.

I'm listening to this song called "This is love" by Annasay.
I was listening to "Ohio is For Lovers" by Hawthorne Heights.
I love music.

My life is still as boring as ever.
I don't even get what my point on earth is. I mean, I don't even feel like I belong half of the time. Would it be easier just to end it now? maybe. But I kind of just might want to stick around for the ride. See what happens. In a way I wish I could just sit back and watch my life from the outside. See what I look like to others. I have never imagined myself in the near future.

"It wasn't a 'forever' kind of thing. Maybe because forever's just too scary."
-Burned