have you ever been alone in a crowded room.

Life is good, people just overreact.

That was one of the secrets on postsecret's sunday secrets. I love those. They always make me feel better.

Yesterday was easter. I got Twilight, and a ton of candy. Rylee was rylee and raegan was smiley baby. My aunt Lorraine is so funny. She has a ton of boy toys, and I love her. I want to have boy toys when I'm that old just like her, but I would never tell my mom that. She would flip. My cousin Kelly also said she saw my dad and linda at Sam's Club. He didn't even notice her.

I wish life was better. I've been starting to feel numb lately, and I'm not sure that's a good thing.

There were these hot guys when Tess and I went on a walk on saturday morning, but I was too chicken to give them our numbers. I could tell Tess was disappointed. On saturday Tess said what if sex makes everything worse, not better. I really don't want that. I want it to make everything better. It has to.

I hate being alone. I'm not sure if I've ever liked it. That's just what I've been used to my whole life. I want more. I want so much more than there is to this life that it's scary. I want to be a marine biologist so badly. I want to make a difference in this world. Even though I know I probably won't.

I was reading Bloom this weekend. I love that book. I think I have around two hundred books now.

I'm gonna go add Tess.

She's upset bad day. Heads for the dresser drawer to drive her pain away. Nothing good can come of this.
-To write Love On Her Arms, Hawthorne Heights

Slow down, this night's a perfect shade of dark blue, dark blue, Have you ever been alone in a crowded room?
- Dark Blue, Jack's Mannequin
Some days all I want to do is cover my ears, close my eyes, and Scream.