falling apart

Everything seemed to be falling apart.
Her family.
some of her friends.
Her life.
she wanted to run away.
she wanted to leave and never come back.
She was planning on it.
but she didn't know how to get the money.
she wanted to see the world.
she wanted her dreams to come true
dreams she never even knew she had
But she honestly knew that it wouldn't happen.
But one thing was for sure
she was getting out of this place.
she was leaving and she was never coming back
Everyone here was just to cookie cutter ish for her liking.
they all dressed the same
talked the same
acted the same.
Both girls and boys
she can't stand it.
she dreamed of a life where everyone was different
where everything was new and exciting
but this was most likely never gonna happen.
she was stuck in this world.
this god forsaken world that some people actually called home
she wanted more.
she wanted to be free.
she wanted to loose control
and feel happy.
she wanted things to go right for a change.
she wanted everything.
but most of it wasn't going to happen.
she would scream in her pillow every night.
for something to happen.
something big
something that would change her life forever.
she screamed in her pillow for people to act better, and not so
the same.
she screamed and she screamed, until finally tears came.
she just looked outside.
at the rain
wishing that it would just wash her away,
along with everything else.
while the tears running down her face
she knew the tears were useless,
so she wiped them away
and sat in her bed
and dreamed of a better tomorrow.