As she looks at her life

She looked at the life
she had always wanted
her hopes, her dreams
everything seemed to be fading
she wasn't happy
she wasn't sad
she was unemotional.
she stopped feeling.
she stopped feeling pain because that was all she ever felt
she stopped feeling happiness, because nothing in her life was happy
Everyday, she put on that fake smile
that said she was happy
She was a professional liar.
she could lie to anyone about anything
but sometimes. . .
she wasn't so sure that was a good thing.
No one ever saw the real side of her.
the one that was sad.
the one who seemed to cry endlessly
the one who made up stories in her head
about her falling
then everything falling apart
because she never imagined herself
with a happy ending.
she wasn't so sure she wanted people to know this side.
she had her heart on lock down
and her mind told her
to never. Trust. Anyone