I'm so confused.
Today was supposed to be a good day.
I woke up, even though I got little sleep, and I felt amazing.
It was snowing, and when I got to school I was the only one of my friends who didn't slip on the way in. I knew it was going to be a good day.
but then when we got to school, Nora was crying because her cat died. That should've been a sign, but I was unusually optimistic. I couldn't wait for math.
But then tess wasn't there, and he was, but I didn't get to talk to him much because of a stupid practice MCA test we had to take, so we didn't get to talk. Its all so confusing! I see you looking at me sometimes, but I don't have the guts to ask. I told Ashley and Mary I like you. Ashley says she likes you, you're funny and nice. I know! I shouted. That's the problem! Then she tells me about the apple tree, and how me and her and mary are good apples, but boys don't want to climb to the top of the tree. She says she hopes that you are one of the boys willing to climb to the top. I hope so. But hope is such a rare thing. Hope can come and go, and I've tried to have it many times but I always end up getting disappointed. I don't even know what to do anymore. I just want to know if you like me or not. Maybe I will just ask. Even though I'm scared to death. What's the point in losing sleep over a silly boy? He's not even that special. Maybe I'm lying. I really just need to figure out this information. I'm going crazy!!!!