She`s standing on a line between giving up & seeing how much more she can take

so I wipe away the tears and close my eyes
forget about the drama and all the lies.
I put on my headphones to drown out the pain
this will be the first night without the rain

She's a mess of gorgeous chaos, you can see it in her eyes.

There's someone in her past that she hasn't gotten over yet. Each day is like the last & she misses what she can't forget. It's just an empty space where something used to be. Now she guards the gate, but she's lost the key.
So no one enters, but no one leaves.

She had warm summer eyes
that flickered like fireflies
when she looked at the world.

Friend: I feel bad for you.
Her: Why?
Friend: Because you're not mad.
You want to be, but you just can't.
And when you talk about him,
Your eyes still sparkle.