**At some point, you have to man up and jump. You've got to quit being scared of the maybe's and what-ifs and just freaking jump. Quit cheating yourself out of the best thing that could ever happen to you. Quit cheating him out of what he's wanted for so long and just fall.**

**Just because you love him more than you love yourself doesn't mean you should hold on. It's killing you. I can see it in your eyes and I hear it in your voice, calm and steady. But inside you're screaming so loud my ears are shattering**

**I've always been independent, never needed anyone by my side. Even when my life is hell, I get through the day with a smile on my face. I don't show the world when my heart is breaking. So when I walk by you and her, you'll never know**

**But I wanted to be one of them. I wanted to believe they were laughing, smiling, even as they were spinning out of control**

**she's just a little supset, but she won't vent to anyone. Her problems aren't important and no one's listening anyways. She's crying inside but hey, she's beatiful, right?**

**And when she breaks down, of course she'll make a sound, but you'll never hear.**

** "I'm not allowed to fall in love." she said. "I'm not allowed to care this much" But when you're staying up late, hoping to god he's tossing and turning, thinging of you, it's too late already.** Story of my life.

**Change was coming. I could feel it. It wasn't a pleasant prospect. Not when everything was perfect the way it is.**

**You were the first boy to completely destroy me. But you'll never know that.**

*thank you for being such a fabulous waste of time**

**don't mind me if I go weak in the knees. Because you have that effect on me. you do**

**It makes sense that it should happen this way, that my heart should break and my hands should shake as if to say it all matters in some unimportant way.**

**Trust me, I know how it feels. I know exactly how it feels to cry in the shower so no one can hear you. I know what it's like to wait for everyone to be asleep so you can fall apart, for everything to hurt so bad you just want it all to end. I know exactly how it feels.**

**Screaming and saying fuck a lot doesn't really get your point across. Sometimes silence is the most violent option to choose.**

**And if you swear that you're alright, I'm not gonna try and change your mind.
Cause the same night I dream that I lose you I'll fall in love and oh honey don't let me walk away from this. If I'm trying to fuck up my own life, then until I figure out why, I think it's best you keep your distance. Lest I fall in love.**

**Everyone warned her of that boy's smile, this poision kiss and toxic touch.
But her craving for him was just too much.**

**dont you hate the feeling when your throat hurts from all the tears you're holding back and you cant control the words coming out of your mouth? there are just too many things you havent said.**

**&& these heart break songs are making sense again and I really wish they didn't...

**I just want to say thank you for calling me back when I hung up on you. And for grabbing my arm when I started to walk away.**

**She's a girl. A sixteen year old beauty on the brink of freedom.A rebellious child with everything to loose.Just another confused youth who thinks she is special, because she listens to bands whose names have more words than some sentences. She pretends not to care and most of the time she gets away with it. But the truth is, no one could care as much as she does. She pretends to hate herself more than she really does. She is scared to remember the past, but even more scared to forget it.**

I really like him. But I don't think anyone really knows how much I do.